🌻 kiwi 🌻 @pareinoia@schelling.pt

of course, none of them were happy about this, and neither were their followers. this was cruel & unethical, they claimed, almost downright oppressive. back then I mostly agreed with them — after all, it's perfectly easy (yes, it is) to eat a nutritious, high-calorie vegan diet.

so, there was a problem when these girls would go to eating disorder treatment centers (think of rehab, but like... for eating disorders). the vast majority of the time, the staff would not allow them to stay vegan. they were given food to eat, and that included animal products.

but it pattern matches *way* too closely to how other foods are seen by the disordered brain. I suspect that there's a similar reason you see so many gluten-free eaters among those w/ eating disorders, too — bread is scary and therefore becomes truly deeply felt as "gross"

to someone unfamiliar w/ disordered eating, this might not seem all that weird — after all, if someone has truly deeply held ethical convictions, it's only natural they would start feeling gross for betraying them, right? if someone believes animals have souls, feel pain, etc.

more than just believing that eating animal products is wrong, the disordered brain warps "right/wrong" into "clean/dirty". I witnessed this happening to myself first-hand — before I even consciously decided to go vegan, I started feeling "gross" when eating animal products.

of course, the brain post-rationalizes and draws up new connections, so on the surface it wasn't as simple as "high calorie, do not want". not that I'm saying there aren't good reasons to go vegan (there are plenty), but when the *entirety* of a demographic is vegan, it's sus.

when I was deep in the eating disorder "recovery" community on Tumblr in ~2015, virtually every single blogger I saw on there was vegan. photo after photo of plates of cut up fruit & veg. meats, eggs, and dairy, often being high-calorie, were "fear foods".

there is a non-negligible number of people who turn to veganism primarily in connection to disordered eating (mostly young women, as they're the primary demographic for eating disorders to begin with)

probably better to just lie and say you met in a seedy dive bar bathroom

imagine telling your kids that their parents met on Twitter

"it's just a plant, at least I'm not taking synthetic pills from Big Pharma" I say as I take several big hits just to be able to go to the 7-Eleven on the corner

"it just makes me giggly and hungry, that's all" I mumble as the hours, days, and weeks all melt into one big puddle

hot take: it is often better to take psychiatric drugs than to self-medicate with weed

I lost ~7 years of my life to weed addiction (which I didn't recognize until the very end) and I really wish I had just gotten on SSRIs instead

at least then I'd have done more with my life

gonna plant a ginkgo tree out front (or out back) when I finally buy a house (hopefully soonish)

I love ginkgo trees so goddamn much

take nuclear power plants offline, continue relying on fossil fuels ➠ climate change worsens, everywhere gets way hotter ➠ people need to use their ACs more ➠ tell them they can't use their ACs and need to conserve power (because you took the damn nuclear plants offline)

this is my gender
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RT @ChemistryClips_
Pills burning on top of stove
https://twitter.com/ChemistryClips_/status/1413806420756107264

ok I've made my decision. ty @CorsairMichel

might fuck around and move to Yonkers

do you know what 1x2x1 (or 1x2, 2x1, 3x4, 4x5, 5x4, etc etc) means

have you used a 5.25- or 8-inch floppy disk (NOT 3.5-inch)

have you ever used a floppy disk