just realized: i really like the idea of whistleblowing
much of my behavior and values can be explained through this
its not enough to rebel against authority, i want to gain their respect and their trust, and only then betray them
i want to obtain power to demonstrate that i don't value it so much that i won't burn it all to make a point
a big general problem is that when people dont like something they try to stay as far away from it as they can, instead of approaching and embracing it
we know that not understanding each other is an issue but the moment we hate something we stop trying to understand it
my contrarian temperament makes it so that i'm always somewhere i don't like. i always want things to go the other way, be the other kind
i'm always in a position to rat you out. doing this is a service to society insofar as it reduces asymmetric information
you have to know how Evil the Other is by your lens, and i will show you, and only i can because i've been there and i've seen it with your eyes
whistleblowers bridge this gap by weaponizing stolen legitimacy