Hm, strange

I am not attracted to men.

I don't want to be attracted to men.

I dont want to want to be attracted to men.

*But* I want to want to want to be attracted to men.

I think this pattern holds for many groups of people I could be attracted to but am not, e.g. trans people, overweight people &c.

Why do my desires flip when I remove the influence thrice?!