a phenomenological interpretation would suggest that during an intentionally-triggered dissociative trance state she reified the Allah egregore as a tulpa, attempted to forcibly terminate it & was mildly traumatized by her inability to do so. don't fuck around w tulpas, kids.
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RT @tszzl
gotta admit that this is quite hilarious all around tbh, altho it speaks to the infohazardous nature of just leaving psychic engineering instructions just lying around w/o the appropriate safeguards. esoteric traditions are occluded, so to speak, to avoid precisely such mishaps.
the flipside of learning to access your minds metaprogramming facility consciously is that you become able to disrupt autonomic processes you have no business messing w/ unless you really know what you're doing; one should think twice before fucking with naturally evolved systems
mild infohazards floating around such as "you are now manually breathing" should be treated as speed bumps; proof that if you dive in w/o care you can end up seriously hurting yourself and others, such as those who did not opt in to being in your psychic blast radius.
it's p clear to those who know me that I don't subscribe to the metaphysically-woo interpretations of such language, but these words point at something v real even in the mundane context; much of occultism is in fact chaotic cognitive hacking, & our minds are rather open to such.
