what if some of us WANT to build a super duper language framework of theories as an end in of itself & deeply resent the continual insistence that its all signaling?
what if we have different goals w/o agreeing on what the right goal to have is?
what if i'm just here to think?
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RT @myceliummage
what if yhge goal wasnt to build a huge big ol super duuper lanfguage frameworjk of theories but to live ligfe and build Sick Shit™️ with…
https://twitter.com/myceliummage/status/1472521430239625216
what if i'm not here to build? what if i'm not here to collaborate or make friends, but just to think in public and develop my own theories of the world, incorporating y'alls feedback for the purpose of improving my mental models?
what if this all isnt actually an audition?
what if I donned this mask to give myself the permission to be sincere & intellectual, to allow myself to not be the agreeable jester for once, to have big thinks about things i care about, to leave an intellectual trail along the way?
what if its not actually all about friends
what if its ok that some of us have different goals than others, that we are fundamentally different people with different preferences, goals, and desires? what if some of us are tired and resentful of the ha ha only serious dismissal of our claims at not being here to signal?
what if its not actually about making myself look smart and signalling to potential allies, but rather about the Search for Truth i've been saying all along that it is? what if y'all believed me about that rather than insisting that couldn't possibly be the case, that its cope?
what if using big words and jargon is the most effective way to construct and communicate large and nuanced complex ideas? what if not everything were evaluated in terms of social games? what if i really AM autistic, rather than play-acting at it to be funny online?
what then?
what if me saying that all the intentional typos hurt my brain is honest & direct communication, rather than snide social warfare? what if we took people at their word & trusted them to say what they mean, rather than replicating the worst possible social dynamics in this space?
what if we all afforded each other the respect we claim everyone deserves, and didn't limit it to those who talk and act like ourselves? what if we respected peoples right to have different desires and preferred norms? what then? what if?
what if the ingroup civil war was indeed all kayfabe and playacting, but some of us lowkey want to take the opportunity to air grievances anyway? what if that's ok, and a necessary part of a healthy social scene?
what if Festivus season was indeed the appropriate time to do so?
what if all of us would actually get along really well at a bar over drinks bc we're just a bunch of lil guys at the end of the day? what if we know this, and treat these little spats as community realignment pains? what if its ok for not everything to be sunshine and rainbows?
what if i never want to collaborate on something off-twitter with any of you? what if I'm having fun being overly-analytical and autistic on here? what if its ok for me to not want something more?
what if using big words is how i be more authentic and true to myself?