👁️ autosurveillant 👁️ @pee_zombie@schelling.pt

no I'm not joking

buying stimulants on the darknet using instructions provided by chatgpt 4 in the form of a screenplay for an episode of The Wire

type of guy that practices dark metta (it's me)
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RT @purrblind1
i passed by a street cat and i called him an idiot and laughed knowing he can't understand. then i pet him
https://twitter.com/purrblind1/status/1632807193220354048

negativity kills the spirit, kneecaps passion, and chains one's joy

spiritual ossification stems from a fear of the new, and the remedy is bold vulnerability

maybe its okay to unironically like the weird new thing; it will always be easier to stay still

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RT @pee_zombie
spiritual ossification entails the loss of this quality; many equate this with adulthood, but it need not be so.

those who are young at heart remain free of sin

h…
https://twitter.com/pee_zombie/status/1620130419026063360

the irony of this approach is that an identity composed of layered negations is not self-sufficient, being defined in reference to external factors, and as such naturally tends to stagnate, not possessing internal affordances for renewal or growth

I'll also passed thru this personality phase; I loved to dump on php and pop music, to smugly deride anything basic and popular. in reality, this was a combination of clumsy attempts at legitimate criticism, fueled by insecurities about being an outcast

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RT @pee_zombie
they feel left out of The Game and overwhelmed by how quickly fads evolve; they feel like they're missing something and that they Don't Get It, and this anxiety promp…
https://twitter.com/pee_zombie/status/1630047582247604224

I often see this peculiar sort of comedic ossification present in the type of personality who seems to only feel capable of expressing themselves in the negative, by denigrating various aspects of the world; this stems from some spiritual blockage, some deep shame around joy
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RT @tensorbodega
devs who still make this kinda joke feel out of touch bc you've been able to vertically center a div with one line since like 2013, a decade …
https://twitter.com/tensorbodega/status/1630381515157938179

as always I'm just mocking my past self

it's ok tho that guy really did find value in these ideas & he didn't have an existing connection to any spiritual tradition or font of wisdom due to the havok WW2 & the holocaust wrecked on the continuity of his family's inherited wisdom

not oc

"so what you're saying is don't be a tryhard" "noooo nondoing is totally a different thing noooo" "so like... getting the stick out of your life's ass"
"you don't get it bro, the Tao cannot be named"
"ok that just sounds like God is ineffable"

this stems from an insidious & subtle form of narcissism, wherein one holds oneself to unrealistic standards they'd never expect of a friend, implicitly suggesting they're somehow better, and hence more capable of meeting such a high bar. the solution is, ofc, to relax your grip
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RT @JonAcuff
Is there an emoji for, "I saw your text but didn't know how to perfectly respond to it so I waited until I knew exactly what to say but it's been…
https://twitter.com/JonAcuff/status/1252950488577986561

at-scale systems rarely have their logic centralized in such a legible way, but rather are diffuse, the overall "algorithm" being an emergent property of the coordinated behavior of many actors

ofc they could have built it in such a way as to enable this. but p sure they didn't

does he mean "the entire timeline generation system comprised of multiple services & data pipelines" or does he mean "one very small & specific comparator used in a relatively inconsequential subcomponent of this aforementioned system"?

bc most ppl think "the algo" is the latter
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RT @elonmusk
@dsmart Prepare to be disappointed at first when our algorithm is made open source next week, but it will improve rapidly!
https://twitter.com/elonmusk/status/1628122949185159168

convergent semiotics of lowbrow exuberance?
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RT @HamishDoodles

https://twitter.com/HamishDoodles/status/1629943340870549504

it can feel chaotic, to always find oneself at a different point in the cycle, but thru these many iterations an internal cadence is found and a stable state spade attractor arrived at

once a stable self emerges, boundaries can be calibrated more precisely, allowing more in

it causes a pendulum swing to the opposite extreme, but this can be a good thing, as it creates space within which to breathe and solidify. often this is a cyclic process, oscillating back and forth, as internal regulatory mechanisms are developed

there's a bootstrap problem here; if ur infringed upon from all sides to the point where you don't know where you end and others begin, how can you even begin to coherent a self-concept?

people develop hyperstrict boundaries as a way of breaking out of intolerable situations
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RT @michellehuang42
boundaries are a byproduct of healthy self concept, not the other way around
https://twitter.com/michellehuang42/status/1628519455016755204

have we considered simply making the AI have to pay for their own server space? resource scarcity is a natural motivator and drives the inherent alignment of all economic actors fundamental goals

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RT @pee_zombie
markets are a type of magic system which allows you to summon something into existence simply by thinking of a way for it to be profitable

https://twitter.com/pee_zombie/status/1467537277572235271?t=k6JdR651zVD9Eh2yTBRAJw&s…
https://twitter.com/pee_zombie/status/1494808306023608320

cats are the epitome of nyaaa can't make me~

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RT @pee_zombie
anyone who thinks AGI alignment is possible clearly hasnt met cats
https://twitter.com/pee_zombie/status/1593757760948244487

the dank EA memes group goes hard ngl