hmm, a week without notifications on here and idk how I feel abt it
intermittent dopamine hits don't leave me fulfilled, but neither does downplaying signaling from others that can plausibly be perceived as acceptance/validation
I think the message is I crave more acceptance/validation irl?
as nice as it is to write something that others find funny/clever/insightful, it's not the same as physical touch or hanging out with friends
it's not dopamine I really need... it's oxytocin ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
anyone ever try microdosing oxycodone?
probably not huh
I have 4-5 pills from an operation last year and might try taking 1/10 of one later this week and see if I notice anything :d
had three great chats but no human contact tonight, so decided this would be a good day to try microdosing oxy for the first time
conducting human experimentation on myself to extend the frontiers of science (read: to rewire my nervous system to cultivate internal belonging and security)
will report more later
I wonder how few ppl have tried microdosing oxy
google turns up only one related result: https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/comments/4onuk1/daily_oxycodone_microdosing/
obvs I wanna avoid tolerance so won't do it daily (I only have a few pills anyway)
we'll see how the first day goes and then move forward from there
also I wonder how this reacts with threshold lsd :o
being a noot stack pioneer is so fun :DSGF
OXYTOCIN (ie healing insecure attachment) LET'S GO >:D