I'm currently functioning on 3 hours of sleep (flew from overseas overnight) but re-reading that and thinking more about this makes me wonder whether this is actually just depression. Or is THAT just numbing myself to important existential questions?
I'm reminded of Corner of the Sky from Pippin https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mdkyc686VIg
Although honestly when I first heard it I thought (and I think the Schwartz's point is) Pippin was being silly and needed to be happier with not being Great.