Since this is the case chronically, I have no frame of reference of what "play" even is, just an abstraction of it developed probably through osmosis. I'm on standard SNRI medication the past few months, which doesn't really make a difference when it comes to that.
If you have any thoughts pls contribute.
Once off meds, probably later this year, I am thinking MDMA in a comfy setting is a possible way to get a glimpse of what "play" could be? (done psychs but experience doesn't translate well to soberness since they're way too mind altering)