this person articulates a sentiment what i've heard many friends express privately (couldn't be me tho lmao). brave tbh, and worth appreciating
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RT @MahiaSinn
Honestly
https://twitter.com/MahiaSinn/status/1348393262348984320
wondering if this is a super-atomized-drunk-on-options zoomer thing or a phase all generations go through in youth
freedom > stability, options > commitment is the theme
as young ppl underrate building long-term relationships and deep exclusive intimacy relative to the fast life, grownups may be forgetting that for some (with certain privileges), it seems highly feasible to have the cake and eat it too
and indeed many grownups would give this advice having went through the same phase and have since "regret it" which seems weird to me. why do you deny to others what you got to have?
it's called "settling down" because one has previously been running around, no?
maybe I'm on a different tangent about the value of monogamy etc, and the QT is more generally related to communicating intents and expectations clearly in any kind of relationship. but there's something related to all this that's been bothering me
some backstory in place of elaboration: after overcoming my high-school sperg phase, I have pretty much been in serial-monogamy relationships throughout the time tinder and such apps blew up so I never got the chance to try it
the thing that was easily obvious was the explosion of *options*. I was struck by how many matches (some) people would have on tinder in any given day, and how many chats they would have going on
contrast this with me, having went through most of life unable to interact with girls *at all*, then slowly learning how to build relationships brick by brick, all the while obsessing over details and analyzing how the damn thing works
ofc no way I can explain everything I learned but one of the key dynamics:
caring less gives you power --> having options lets you care less --> options is power
ok that's enough abstract talk.
the thing that bothers *me* is that the way I learned to experience intimacy, I don't *see* options. I'm a rabid dog that hasn't eaten in days. when I manage to grab hold of some sliver of meat I hold on and never let go lest you forcibly wrench it from my jaw
and when everyone's drunk on freedom and trying to manage all these choices, being like this is positively *bad manners*. it's inconsiderate, to care too much. "why are you forcing me to hurt you? it makes me feel bad and I don't deserve this"
no. 1 tip i've gotten from friends re: this is, "eh if you start dating again you'll get used to it eventually"
this might be true. but also I don't *want* that to happen to me, because I feel like this hard-won capacity for love is the only thing keeping me from fully becoming a bitter hateful bastard
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RT @miftah___ra
I think eventually the anger started to stick & never went away, giving birth to this murderous urge to dominate, humiliate, and oppress people I don't like. Basically deep down a part of me wants to be a ruthless tyrannical di…
https://twitter.com/miftah___ra/status/1299647714020352001
if the two paths are Love and Power then I have chosen Love while everyone else is choosing Power and I don't know what to do
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RT @sadalsvvd
thought: all paths can be reduced to one of love or power
https://twitter.com/sadalsvvd/status/1348347711175720960
then, by giving everyone (effectively) infinitely more options, we make everyone more powerful. but what really happens?
freedom is not *undesirable* despite its contradictions, but not everyone knows what to do with it
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RT @forshaper
@miftah___ra I'd say this is more true now than ever before.
The uncertainty in the air is FREEDOM. People are mad because they have MORE FREEDOM and they don't know what to do with it.
https://twitter.com/forshaper/status/1347039401327566849