they asked me about school and career stuff and i gave a loooong recap of the past few weeks just for them to go on a tangent and not show any sign that they heard or care about any of it

after dinner we sat on the couch and watched cnn and they started going on their palestine bullshjt so i chanfed the channel, but alas the next channel was indonesian politics

afyer listening to a few minutes of incoherent boomer whining about the current administration (only because their preferred candidate didnt win the last election obv) i proceeded to retreat to my room

and TWEET. i blame them for this

they constantly keep telling me to go home when im living in the city, yet when im home i get no sense at all that my presence is appreciated. curious

i genuinely believe that tjey like it when i'm home, but i suspect only in a very specific way, which is thay it maintains some semblance of an intact family while my little brother is out all day

i get that theyre trying to salvage what warmth can be had in whats left of this family, and its sad, just truly sad

but also its fucking exhausting and i donf wanna be a doll in this fucking charade

sigh sigh sigh

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RT @amirism_
@Virtual1nstinct one therapist told me some years ago that if I failed to make peace with my father before he died I will regret it forever.

I still haven't decided if I agree
https://twitter.com/amirism_/status/1339231193208815616

wait a minute this isnt complainposting, this is feelsposting! u baitster you