after dinner we sat on the couch and watched cnn and they started going on their palestine bullshjt so i chanfed the channel, but alas the next channel was indonesian politics

afyer listening to a few minutes of incoherent boomer whining about the current administration (only because their preferred candidate didnt win the last election obv) i proceeded to retreat to my room

and TWEET. i blame them for this

they constantly keep telling me to go home when im living in the city, yet when im home i get no sense at all that my presence is appreciated. curious

i genuinely believe that tjey like it when i'm home, but i suspect only in a very specific way, which is thay it maintains some semblance of an intact family while my little brother is out all day

i get that theyre trying to salvage what warmth can be had in whats left of this family, and its sad, just truly sad

but also its fucking exhausting and i donf wanna be a doll in this fucking charade

sigh sigh sigh

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RT @amirism_
@Virtual1nstinct one therapist told me some years ago that if I failed to make peace with my father before he died I will regret it forever.

I still haven't decided if I agree
https://twitter.com/amirism_/status/1339231193208815616

wait a minute this isnt complainposting, this is feelsposting! u baitster you