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let's get dis party started...

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I wonder how few ppl have tried microdosing oxy

google turns up only one related result: https://www.reddit.com/r/Nootropics/comments/4onuk1/daily_oxycodone_microdosing/

obvs I wanna avoid tolerance so won't do it daily (I only have a few pills anyway)

we'll see how the first day goes and then move forward from there

also I wonder how this reacts with threshold lsd :o

being a noot stack pioneer is so fun :DSGF

OXYTOCIN (ie healing insecure attachment) LET'S GO >:D

anyone ever try microdosing oxycodone?

probably not huh

I have 4-5 pills from an operation last year and might try taking 1/10 of one later this week and see if I notice anything :d

hmm, a week without notifications on here and idk how I feel abt it

intermittent dopamine hits don't leave me fulfilled, but neither does downplaying signaling from others that can plausibly be perceived as acceptance/validation

I think the message is I crave more acceptance/validation irl?

as nice as it is to write something that others find funny/clever/insightful, it's not the same as physical touch or hanging out with friends

it's not dopamine I really need... it's oxytocin ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

the next 40ish days are going to be an emotional rollercoaster through an underground mine, I can already feel it

just have to remember there's light at the end of the tunnel

(but you have to be patient, you can't force it to appear any faster bc breaking the space-time continuum goes against the rules of nature and laws of physics)

some days I'm sure I'll live to 100 and other days I feel like I died 20 yrs ago and everyone is too distant to tell me the truth

anyone try minds.com?

I made an account on minds.com and now idk what to do lol

OH SHII---

my gift to myself the rest of this winter is part of my stimulus bucks will be used to experiment with threshold mdma doses

unfortunately we're well-acquainted

sometimes they get too close for comfort and overstay their welcome

SAD + solipsism are an unhealthy combination

and yet I have to concede the one consistent variable in all my struggles is... me

when both internal and external self-justification facades melt away, what's left?

pure consciousness... and coupled with it, fear itself

I'm as strong as ever, it's my egodystonic environment and shallow hollow network that reliably let me down

feeling numb and abject 😐

haven't felt like this in 2021 yet, cool

hooray for cyclical SAD rearing its head at the expected time like clockwork*

fresh twist: this year I have no chance of any gatherings with 'friends' 🙄

*a few weeks after the year begins once the new year doesn't seem as novel anymore but it's still dark, cloudy, and frigid outside

(I already have a SAD light, am on the optimal meds, exercise, meditate, and usually get enough sleep... just have to wait it out 😕)

we have a winner for best smackdown

network-assisted troll potential rising.....

based on responses to the latest stone toss comic, gab seems to think Q is a jew... 🙄

I told them it's kanye, but idk if they're ready for the truth 😔