And final secret thing is that I feel stuck and directionless and I feel like going overseas will help. Just get me out of my current context. But that doesn't feel very strategic. And it's not clear that this will actually help.
@tortle there's tons of us in NYC and we regularly hang! if you come thru lmk and i'll help you get connected
Part of this is that I believe it's valuable for me to figure out where I'm heading with my life. I'm implicitly disagreeing that the model of happiness which is like "make sure you have good friends, good enough job, fun hobbies" is sufficient for me to feel satisfied.