protoneutype @protoneutype@schelling.pt

OH SHII---

my gift to myself the rest of this winter is part of my stimulus bucks will be used to experiment with threshold mdma doses

unfortunately we're well-acquainted

sometimes they get too close for comfort and overstay their welcome

SAD + solipsism are an unhealthy combination

and yet I have to concede the one consistent variable in all my struggles is... me

when both internal and external self-justification facades melt away, what's left?

pure consciousness... and coupled with it, fear itself

I'm as strong as ever, it's my egodystonic environment and shallow hollow network that reliably let me down

feeling numb and abject 😐

haven't felt like this in 2021 yet, cool

hooray for cyclical SAD rearing its head at the expected time like clockwork*

fresh twist: this year I have no chance of any gatherings with 'friends' 🙄

*a few weeks after the year begins once the new year doesn't seem as novel anymore but it's still dark, cloudy, and frigid outside

(I already have a SAD light, am on the optimal meds, exercise, meditate, and usually get enough sleep... just have to wait it out 😕)

we have a winner for best smackdown

network-assisted troll potential rising.....

based on responses to the latest stone toss comic, gab seems to think Q is a jew... 🙄

I told them it's kanye, but idk if they're ready for the truth 😔

this is a comfy respite from the Discourse™

no clout chasing, no posturing, no big empty void

just a friendly intimate authentic space

*breathes a sigh of relief, flexes fingers, and stretches arm behind back*

space is the place...

and this is a nice place :D

imagine a social network with zero notifications

why did it become a thing for us to be pinged when someone likes an update or responds to a message 🤔

answer: bc it keeps us glued to said app

ultimately nothing in a notification commands immediate attention

this isn't rocket science folks

no alarm bell ➡️ peace of mind

@StevenFan you're right

however I'm afraid I'm not the person for that job

my operational objectives are simply to discover and connect with autonomous minds and overlooked hyperconnectors

if you're up to the task, more power to you 🙇

@StevenFan not worth it rn

interface wise, it's surprisingly strong

but it has a serious problem with lazy loading results that take forever to appear, if at all

and very few interesting ppl yet

the situation might improve in 3 months or so, we'll see

my favorite mastodon feature so far:

turn off 100% of notifications

no attention hijacking here 😌

oof...having a pretty hard time finding someone on gab who isn't

- maga boomer
- flagrant nazi
- #conservativechristian
- conspiracy nut

did find this random vegan influencer tho :P

💁 12 ways to explain why u don't use FB/twt anymore:

1. I like to try new things
2. FB/twt got boring
3. FB/twt don't need me
4. FB/twt make me feel invisible
5. I don't like ads
6. I don't like zuck/jack
7. twt is 98% blowhards and brands
8. I don't like clickbait
9. I don't like being pressured to waste my energy on the outrage topic du jour
10. I'm against monopolies and need my actions to align with my values
11. the future is private, decentralized communication
12. have u tried mastodon?

@pareinoia *poking the hornet nest*

except ender's game was lame?

@jdp @WomanCorn hmm first I need to find some gab accounts worth following 🤔